I don’t want any more headaches after the one I had last night drinking with Zach’s (cyde) friends remembering his loss. Truly an inconceivable loss. If you need anything reach out to me. I’ll listen. We all go through bad times. After going through my wife’s mom dying this year unexpectedly and how hard that had been it’s really tough. Life is hard sometimes but there are always people to support.I'm having a really shitty couple of weeks and tonight it seemed to come to a head. I definitely need to go see my therapist but she moved her practice over an hour away and it isn't convenient to see her anymore. I know I should just take the trip down for at least a session because I need to talk to someone and starting over with a new person seems like I'm spinning my wheels.
I never put this thread in my "watched", which I probably should have (and did tonight) because it's good that we keep tabs on each other. The post from jmgrub has me in tears right now. I've never been suicidal. Too fucking afraid to die honestly. And that's where some of my anxiety and shit comes from, having so many close family members die young from disease.
Hard to hear the news about cyde too. I saw the picture that Lutter posted with him and I guess his wife? Seems like he was living the dream which might be half the problem.
Living a dream life you feel like you aren't really a part of.